My Amika

My Amika

BABALA: Ang kuwentong ito ay may paksang "incest" kaya iwasan po kung ayaw ninyo.

PAUNAWA: Hindi po ako ang nagsulat ng bahaging ito kaya pasintabi na rin sa tunay na may-akda.

This was adopted or inspired from a real incident that I read on the news.

I have a fantasy. My former live-in partner for three years thought that my reading of incest stories on the internet are just normal fantasy but she never expect the kind of circumstance that I have been to with someone who is very dear and special to me.

During my late teens, I impregnated a girl who was everyone’s crush in our neighborhood. I really felt special because she’s a virgin when I had her. Unfortunately, we were too young to get married and my family is against early marriage. So the girl’s family and my family agreed that both sides will support the baby until we are old enough to become a family. Fortunately, my family could be considered as affluent kaya nasustentuhan nang parents ku yung bata while I was in college. Nung nagtrabaho na ko, ay nagstart na rin ang pagsupport ku sa bata. Unfortunately, however, my girl friend and I split because we ended up dating other people. We took care of our daughter well even though we failed to resolve our differences. My daughter’s name is Amika.

Amika’s mom (my ex) went abroad to work, and when Amika was 9 years old, she moved to a different province south of manila with her maternal grandparents. Since my work was in Manila, I seldom saw her since then.

After years of not regularly seeing my daughter, I decided to take a vacation from work and spend quality time with her. I want to treat her for finishing elementary with honor, and for her recent birthday too. I was glad when her mom allowed me to fetch her from their province. Since it was her summer vacation before starting high school, I decided to take Amika to Subic in Zambales for her 13th birthday. I really thought it will be fun to go on a long drive trip with her so we could bond as father and daughter.

I was very excited to see my little angel, and I was really impressed about how Amika has grown. She looks fantastic when I fetched her. Although only recently turning 13, she has started to appear like a lady. She’s very conscious about her appearance, so she likes to look beautiful all the time. Her petite body is really amazing, and although she’s still short, Amika has a pair of nice slender legs. At Yung pwet nya ay small, rounded and cute; at ang boobs nya ay maliit pero lumalaki na rin. Nag-init ako kaagad magkita kami ulit.

The trip was to subic was uneventful, but we really had lots of fun during our three day stay together in Subic. She was really excited about everything. Kahit na trece nya sya ay curious pa din sya sa madaming bagay especially when we went to the zoo. Pero sa part ko naman, I tried so hard to control myself but things started to become very difficult for me especially on our second and third day. Try kung pasimple pero hindi ka talaga maiwasan na pagmasdan si Amika. Lagi ko syang sinasabihan na napakaganda nya at napakaswerte nang magiging asawa nya. My crush for her intenisified and transformed into strong physical attraction lalu na nung nag-beach kami.

Grabe ang nangyari sa beach. Kung hindi lang madaming tao ay baka na-molestya ku nya sya sa tubig. Kahit naka t-shirt sya on top of her bating suit, makat na makat ang utang nya sa basa nyang suot. Payakap yakay na lang ako at minsan ay pasimpleng hahawakan and pwetan nya. Ginawa ko lahat para pigilan ang sarili ko. Pero sa loob ko ay grabeng pagkalibog. Lumala pa yung nung nagyaya siyang pumunta sa bandang malalim nang tubig. So, I ended up carrying her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and I embraced her body. She’s all wet, looking very sexy, and I becoming very horny. I could feel her breast on my bare chest. We’re facing each other as I carried her and kissed her forehead, nose, and cheeks every now and then. We stopped when the water was at my chest level. She rested her face on my right shoulder and I switched my hands to her butt pretending that my arms got tired.

With her legs wrapped around my waist, I let go of her so she slid down a little bit. We both could feel my heart pounding strongly as the head of my erect penis inside my speedo touched her groin. We were in that position for a while and had she been another girl or had she been my girlfriend, I could have slid her shorts and panty to one side and insert my hard penis inside her young pussy. My self control prevailed, but I felt extreme frustration after the beach incident. So, I had to resolve my problem.

So I asked myself how could I possibly seduce my daughter. I guess one solution ay ligawan sya. So ang ginawa ko ay ini-spoiled ku sya na para talagang nanliligaw ako. Sunod ako sa lahat nang gusto nya. Kung saan sya magyayayang pumunta at kumaen ay pinagbigyan ko sya. I even let her shop and bought whatever she liked. I also bought her flowers.

Bandang huli, naging parang effective ang strategy ko. So dahil napaka sweet ko sakanya, napansin ko na naging sweet din sya sakin. Nung last night na namin sa Subic. Nagtabi kaming matulog sa kama (twin bed kasi yung room naming) at sinabi ko ulit sa kanya na napaka-swerte nang magiging asawa nya dahil napaka-ganda nya at sexy pa. She smiled at me and said “thank you papa.” Yumakap si Amika sa akin at dahil sa frustration ko ay hindi ako nakapagpigil at napahalik ako sa lips nya. I kissed her lower lip and upper lip alternately maybe for about ten seconds, but I was forced to stop myself since she did not even move or kissed me back. Natakot ako at natigilan talaga at nang tignan ko ang napaka-inocenteng mukha ni Amika ay iniwasan nya ang tingin ko. Hindi ako nakapagsalita at I felt very embarrassed. I realized that my mind has been clouded by my intense lust and physical attraction to my daughter and I committed an awful act. Natauhan ako bigla at medyo na-schock din ako. Marahang tumalikod si Amika pero hindi naman sya lumipat nang kama. So, the whole night magkatabi pa rin kami hangang sa nakatulog kaming pareho.

Then morning came. We prepared for our trip back home at nag-kailangan kami. Hindi kami nag-imikan the whole time na na-ligo, nag-bihis, at nagprepare nang manga bags at gamit namin. Pero buti na lang nung after nang breakfast, I was relieved a little bit when she started talking. She thanked me for taking her on a trip and told me that she loves me. So, nagstart kaming mag-usap nang normal ulit. I became comfortable again when she held my hand. We held our hand on the way to my car and during the trip back home. I started stealing glimpses of her again which were very fucking obvious, but she just smiled at me. She’s gorgeous that day. She was wearing sandals, a white short, and a light yellow t-shirt. Pero naglaro na naman ang isip ko dahil nakatirintas and hair nya na parang bata. One on each side. Kaya lalung nag-mukhang nene si Amika.

On the way back to manila, we were chatting the whole time. Nung bandang nasa San Fernando, Pampanga na kami, bigla akong tinanung ni Amika, “Dad, mukhang pagod ka, kung gusto mu magpahinga muna tayo.” Since I was really tired, we stopped by at a gas station to rest. However, when my daughter asked me if I wanted to sleep, I took it as my last opportunity. So I asked the gasoline attendant where the nearest motel was, and we proceeded there.

On the way to the motel, pinakikiramdaman ko si Amika. Tahimik lang sya at walang imik. Pero ako, halatang ninenerbios, excited, at namamawis pa. The first time I felt this kind of excitement ay yung elementary pa ako at manonood ako for the first time nang x-rated. Natatandaan ku pa yung title: Debie does Dallas. Pero yung excitement ko ay ten times stronger.

Nung nasa counter na kami nang motel ay kasama ko si Amika, at daladala namin ang ilang gamit para hindi na kami pabalik-balik sa kotse. Habang nakikipag-transact ako sa lalaking cashier, tila ba may ngiting namumuo sa mukha nang lalake. Parang may hinala sya. Si Amika naman ay halus katabi ku lang at inosententeng pinagmamasdan at hinahawakan nang kanyang dalagitang kamay yung manga laminate at calling cards sa desk nung cashier. Nang nakapagbayad na ako at hawak na ang room-key ay nagulat na lang ako nang tanungin ako nung cashier at narinig pa ata nang daughter ko, “Sir, do you need some condoms?” Natigilan ako bigla na parang nabulunan. “Ah eh..pardon me!” Nagsalita ulit ang cashier, “Ah sir, may condom po kami dito kung kailangan nyo! There was at least 10 seconds of extreme awkwardness before I realized that this is the best time to gauge my daughter’s thoughts. Amika appearred pretending that she was not listening even though it’s “probable” that she heard everything since she was just a few feet way.

I finally decided that this is the moment of truth. I’m just going to figure out how to get myself out from any possible predicament with my daughter. I could lose her trust forever. So sabi ko sa isip ko ay bahala na. Kinausap ko yung cashier, “Ah..sige, give me some of those” (I pointed to the condoms on display at the same time). “Sir, anu po dito sa dalawa” “OK just give me the Durex please” Tumingin naman ako kay Amika at wala pa naman syang reaction, at dahil dun, ay medyo nabawasan ang takot ko. Pero na-excite na naman ako. Chance ko na ba talaga ito? Or hindi nya talaga ko narinig?

However, I thought the cashier is finally done with us, and we could finally go to our room when he suddenly asked for our ID’s. He said he needed to register all guests. I handed my driver’s license to him. My daughter handed her school ID too. As the cashier wrote down our names, he suddenly realized the inevitable fact. He leaned towards me asked, “Sir, ano pu ba nyo si Amicable (her real name)?” Sumagot ako, “..ah..eh, Anak ko sya.” Amika seemed to have heard me (or maybe not) and looked at the cashier innocently. Nung paalis na kami, ay lumingun ulit ako sa cashier at hindi ko na medescribe ang mukha nya. Para bang excited na din ang gago. I held Amika’s soft ang angelic hand as we headed to our room.

At dahil motel yung napuntahan namin, habang papunta kami sa room ay may narinig kaming manga ungol nang babae sa isang dinaanan naming room. Obvious naman na alam nang daughter ko na may nangyayari so loob pero wala lang syang imik. Nang nasa loob na kami nang elevator I decided to to break the ice.

Nestor: Mukang nag-eenjoy yung babae dun sa isang kwarto baby.

Amika: Nag-eenjoy ba yun papa? Dinig ko, para syang nasasaktan.

Nestor: Ganun talaga sweetheart, sex moan ang tawag dun.

Amika: Sex moan?

Nestor: Oo, natural lang yun pag nasasarapan sa sex.

Amika: Hi hi hi! Sino naman kaya ang ka-sex nun girl?

Nestor: Well, kahit sino. Baka boyfriend nya, or asawa.

Amika: Pa, siguro boyfriend nya yun.

I’m getting excited with our chat and I decided to be bolder

Nestor: ..ah eh, pwede din daddy nya un, kase boses bata yung girl.

Amika: ay pwede bay un? Diba masama yun papa?

Nestor: Kung gusto naman nila pareho at love naman nila ang isa’t isa, siguro OK lang.

Lumipas ang nakaka-kabang ilang segundo bago nagsalita ang anak ko.

Amika: Sino kaya ang naka-devirginized sa kanya?

Nestor: Ba’t mu naman natanung yan? (with my voice starting to tremble)

Amika: Hm, kase pa, ako kase muntik nawala ang virinity ko sa manga fraternity. Nererecruit nila kami sa grupo nila at pinapili kami kung sarap or hirap.

Nestor: Ah..muntik na..?

Amika: Opo pa muntik lang no. Virgin pa ako.

Nestor: Anung nagyari.

Amika: May nauna kasi sa akin sa initiation, si Marjorie. Nung “ina-ano” sya eh..

Nestor: Anung “ina-ano?”

Amika: Yung ano..alam mu na yun pa!

Nestor: Kinakantot?

Amika: ..ah, opo.

Nestor: Tapos?

Amika: Nung ina-ano sya ay sumilip ako. Nakatali yung mata nya. Yung isa lalake, “ina-ano” sya sa “anu” nya, tapus yung isang lalake naman ay sinipsip yung dede nya.

Nestor: Pinanood mu sila anak?

Amika: Sandali lang po pero umalis ako kaagad. Kinabahan ako kaya ako nag-backout.

Nestor: Kinabahan ka ba sa takot anak or na-excite ka nung nakita mung kinakantot si Marjorie?

Amika: Hindi ko alam pa, pero umalis din ako. Sabi ni Marjorie masarap daw, hi hi hi!

Nestor: Virgin ba si Marjorie nung kinantot sya?

Amika: Opo pa. Masakit daw nung una pero masarap nung huli.

Nestor: Masarap talaga ang kumakantot at kinakantot anak. Buti na lang at nag-backout ka. Virgin ka pa rin ba?

Amika: Ah..Opo, daddy virgin pa ko.

Nestor: Alam mu Amika, yung mama mo ay virgin nung nakantot ko sya.

Naging comportable at unti-unting nagging casual ang conversation naming ni Amika habang hinahanap naming ang room. Tuloy lang ang usapan naming nang anak ko.

Amika: Anung mas gusto mu pa, virgin or hindi virgin?

Nestor: Paborito ko ang virgin anak. The best talaga pag ako ang una sa babae, masarap kumantot nang virgin.

Amika: Hi hi hi, salbahe ka pala pa, nakailang virgin ka na?

Nestor: Naka sixteen anak.

Amika: Sixteen! Ang dami nun ah.

Nestor: Hindi naman baby, actually mag-sisixteen pa lang.

Hindi na-get ni Amika yung sinabi ko hanggang nakarating at nakapasok na kami sa loob nang room. Pagkasara ko nang pinto ay hinihagis ko sa upuan ang dala kung karga. Sa paghagis ko ay nalaglag sa floor ang box nang condom. Punulot ito ni Amika.

Amika: ah..eh dad, ba’t bumili ka nito (habang hawak nya ang

box)

Nestor: (ngumiti mu na ako)..pang sixteen ka anak.

Amika: Pang sixteen? Pa, anung..

Hindi ko na pinatapos ang sasabihin nya at lumapit ako sa anak

ko. I held her face with my hands and intensely looked at her eyes

and said, “Kakantutin kita.”