Filipino Sex Stories
Bianca. Part 6 - Rules
Bianca. Part 6 - Rules
Ito ang mga napagkasunduan naming rules ni Bianx sa aming hindi normal na sex life:
1. Safety nya ang number one priority. Kapag alanganin kahit konti ang kanyang safety ay hindi nya itutuloy ang kahit anong naughty stuff na binabalak namin.
2. Manlilibog lang sya ng iba o magpapakantot sa iba kapag parehas kaming payag. Kapag nag aalinlangan kahit isa samin ay hindi itutuloy ang plano.
2.a. Ang exception lang dito ay kung hindi nya ako ma contact at gustong gusto nya na magpabastos sa iba -> Naidagdag tong rule na to ng halos isang taon na kami.
3. Hiling nya na wag naman sobrang random ng kakantutin nya. May konting research din para sa kanyang safety and health.
3.a Ito ang rule na madalas hindi masunod. Kapag inatake ng libog, ito ang unang nakakalimutan.
4. Condom is a must. Lagi itong nasusunod kaya lagi kaming may baon na condom. Ako lang ang pwedeng mag cum sa loob ng puke nya and later on sa pwet nya.
5. Di ako pwedeng kumantot ng ibang babae kapag hindi sya kasama. Selosa pa din sya kahit papaano at hindi daw nya kayang hindi sya kasama.
6. Bawal ang senior na. Nadala siguro sya sa mga napapanood na movies or shows na namamatay yung senior habang nagse-sex.
7. No photos, no videos. Period. Siguraduhin ito ng mabuti. See Rule number 1.
8. Bawal sa kakilala, kaibigan, kaklase, etc hanggat maari para maka-iwas sa mga complications na pwedeng maidulot nito.
9. Bawal sa negro. Ayaw daw nyang mapunit ng husto ang puke nya.
10. Libog lang talaga ang pwede. Walang emotional attraction o attachment. Pwede i-share sa iba ang katawan nya, pero ako lang ang mahal nya.
Lahat ng rules na ito pati ang mga addendum nila ay nasunod habang magkasintahan pa kami ni Bianx maliban na lang sa number 3 na maraming beses hindi nasunod.
Madali namin napag agree-han ni Bianx ang rules 1 to 4. Ang rule 5 to 10 naman ay nadagdag na lang ng nadagdag sa sumunod na linggo at buwan.
Noong unang beses pa lang akong pumunta sa bahay ni Bianx ay na pagkasunduan na namin ang rules 1 to 4 kasabay ng mga una naming binalak na pwede naming gawin. Buong maghapon at magdamag talaga kami libog na libog sa isa't isa nun. Hindi nawawala kahit ilang beses kaming mag sex, kahit ba mag shower na kami o manood mang ng dvd, mag lambingan o kahit ano pang gawin namin. Laging nauuwi sa kantutan. Doon na din ako natulog nung gabi na yun at umuwi lamang early afternoon kinabukasan. I-share ko na lang ang mga interesting parts at mga kinalibugan ko pati na din kung anong nangyari nung huli. Nakakatuwa na mas maraming pm's asking questions about our relationship vs questions about our sex life.
Ang unang unang gustong gawin ni Bianx talaga nung mga oras na yun ay magpakantot ulit kay 3 and 4. Matagal namin pinag isipan, parehas naming gusto pero parehas kaming nag-aalangan. Dito na buo ang rule number 1 kasi pwedeng may gawin si 3 and 4 na hindi namin ma-anticipate at mapag handaan. Pwedeng malagay sa alanganin si Bianx kaya hindi na lang namin ito tinuloy. We both think na people can do something totally unpredictable when under the influence.
Si 2 ang nakipag hiwalay kay Bianx. Nagka siryosong girlfriend daw pero sinabi kay Bianx na pwede naman daw silang mag sex ng patago, wag nga lang daw si Bianx ang magtetext. Galit na galit daw si Bianx nun at nag walkout nung nag-uusap sila. Pero bumalik din daw sya saka nagpakantot. Twice pa sila nag kita after nun para lang magpakantot sya. Both times si 2 ang nag aya. Di na daw na-ulit kasi nawalan na sya ng interest at naawa sa girlfriend ni 2.
Tinanong nya ako kung gusto ko makipag threesome kasama si Yang. Nung pinag isipan ko ito ng mabuti. Parang hindi ko naman talaga type si Yang so parang alangan ako. Tinanong ko si Bianx kung papayag ba yun, sabi nya sure sya na ma-convince nya yun ng one time threesome. Yang owe's her one daw. Pero di din namin tinuloy. Hanap na lang kami ng iba sabi ko. Hanapan daw nya ako, parang bugaw lang. Haha.
Everyday mag masturbate si Bianx. Sa mga red days nya ay puro nipples lang ang nilalaro nya. Dun daw siguro naging super sensitive ng nipples nya at kaya nyang mag cum na nipples lang ang nilalaro. Naging weakness din daw nya ang nipples nya. Parang on switch daw na walang off feature. Kaya madalas kaming mag SOP lalo na pag di kami nagkita nung araw na yun. Natuto daw syang mag self play nung nasa US pa lang daw sya, won't mention the age na lang.
Most girls daw, clit talaga ang preference. Most din daw talaga sa clit lang nag cucum. Pero sya daw parang mas nag cucum sya sa penetration. And size matters daw talaga para sa kanya. Sa kanilang apat na magkaka-close na barkada, never pa daw naka experience ng orgasm si Diane saka Apple. Di daw nag sosolo play yung dalawa. Si Apple zero experience at walang boyfriend since birth, si Diane naman daw puro dada lang at complete noob daw in terms of experience in bed. All bark and no bite daw.
Nung unang tinanong nya ako, whats the first thing that comes to mind na nagpapalibog sakin na pwede nyang gawin nung time na yun, ang sagot ko sa kanya is her in a public place with no bra at bakat na bakat ang nipples. Ito ang una naming pinag planuhan. Una, tinanong ko ba kung pwede bang wag na sya mag bra forever, hindi kasi for health reasons, para di daw lumawlaw agad mga dede nya, and may mga circumstances din na hindi pwede. Example nya nun, is pano kung may family dinner kami, hindi naman daw sya pwedeng magpaka slut at baka paghiwalayin kami ng magulang ko. Pero sobrang nagustuhan nya ang idea at willing syang gawin soon. Pano nga lang daw kung ayain sya makipag sex ng total random. Humaba yung usapan namin nun at nabuo at rules 2, 3 and 4. Kikilalanin muna daw nya kung may lalapit bago sya magpaalam magpakantot. Right after pag usapan ito, nag sex kami ng matindi nun sa living room area.
Last nyang naka sex before ako, was si 5. Mga 2 or 3 weeks before bday ni Liam. So matagal daw syang tigang. If I took advantage of her daw nung bday ni Liam, papayag sya no questions asked kasi sobrang horny daw sya na pasimple akong manyak. Pero buti na lang daw hindi, kasi ang sakit daw isipin kung naging fuck buddies lang kami. Ang lungkot at bigat daw sa dibdib.
First meeting pa lang daw namin crush nya na ako. Inamin naman nya madaming gwapo sa barkada namin, pero ako lang daw yung parang walang interest sa kanya. Yung chill lang, hindi papansin, may pagka suplado. Una daw kala nya challenging lang kaya sya naging interested sakin, pero ang gentleman ko daw at maalaga sa mga friends kong girls. Kaya daw pala ako ang kuya. Crush daw ako dati ni Samantha and Anne, mga kabarkada ko. Pero di na daw ngayon, kasi daw na misunderstood lang daw nung dalawa yung pagiging maalaga ko sa kanila. Si Anne nga daw nagfafall na daw dati kasi pag tatawid daw ng kalsada tinatawid ko pa sya lagi. Tinawanan daw nya and sabi nya ang babaw ah, pero gets nya daw. Girls notice the headlines daw, pero fall in love with the details.
Game sya sa sex in public. Game na game. Nahuli kami twice dahil madalas talaga namin itong gawin. Both times guards - guards ng isang executive village at guards ng isang business establishment, hindi sa isa sa mga commercial properties nila ha. Magandang idea ito para sa isa sa mga kwento tungkol sa kanya. Pag-iisipan ko itong mabuti.
That night might be the best night of our relationship. We both felt na that was it. I was the one for her and she was the one for me. Compatibility wise, without a doubt. Intelectual, physical, emotional, sexual check boxes - checked! Funny how the human heart works. We broke up just two years after that night, di naman eksakto but close enough. No big fight, no third party-ish, at least not emotionally and definitely no hate. Just lots of tears, promises and more plans on what comes next - we became bestfriends afterwards. Did we still fuck as friends? Oh hell yes we did! Kahit both in a relationship kami, we still had sex, patakas madalas lalo na sa side ko. One of our promises was to have sex at least once a month . Nasunod naman to for the most part, until we got older and got busier with life, di na naging madalas but everytime we did, it was hot as hell.
We rarely fought nung kami pa. Even if we did, it rarely lasted more than a few hours. We were happy and content and did a lot of new things together. Obviously the sex was great. It just got to the point na we fell out of love. We both did, we both lost it. We can't explain it but we just did. I think it was lingering for a at least 2 months before we actually broke up. She had bigger balls than I did so she started the conversation. Like we always do, we tried to make sense of things. Talk about it the whole night. We concluded na, while we still love each other terribly, care about each other the most in the world, it wasn't the same. It doesn't feel like the unexplainable force that makes you burn with passion and throw all reason out the window. Pero our feelings and care for each other were so strong na we can't live without the other. We always had answers for our how's and why's, its just that we can't answer the question who? with of our names anymore.
We decided to be bestfriends. To still have sex as much as we want to. Our partners had to deal with us being bestfriends. It was a buy one take one deal. When we were getting to know someone we were really interested in, we would always ask that person if they can deal with us having a bestfriend of opposite sex, someone who has been there way before, who would always be around, and who would remain long after any relationship fizzles out. It kinda was the first test if someone was worth our time. Our biggest fight ever was when I had a serious girlfriend after her. She lost it completely for the first time, since it was Diane, one of her closest friends. We patched it up about two weeks after, and I re-assured her that our secret is ours alone. And I never had anything going on with Diane before Diane and I started dating. It just happened. She was pissed kasi even when we were still together, Diane always had a thing for me. While I only ever noticed Diane a few years after I broke up with Bianx. Diane and I didn't even last a year. Sex was like manual labor for me and she was boring. Whenever would I complain to Bianx about Diane, Bianx would always tell me, 'TOLD YOU SO!'
There were many boyfriends and girlfriends in between and nothing seem to change between us. Oh boy there were handful of difficult times that we both contemplated getting back together, it was just so logical and seemed like the smart thing to do, but never did we dare try to go back to who we were, when we were an us. Probably we value each other and what we had after we broke up even more so than gambling on creating what ifs and chasing after the past. We never had that cliche usapan tho, you know, the one that boy-girl bestfriends always have, na sila na magpapakasal after x number of years pag single pa din sila. We both find it... Cringy.. She did promise to bear my child if no one else would. The logistics of it all would be a pieace of cake for the both of us. But time went on and no one really ever stands still. The drift always happens, gradual for most, unbearably miniscule for the both of us. Again, we didn't notice it happen, we drifted apart.
The last time I saw Bianx in person was about 10 years ago. She went back to the states. Tumatanda na daw ang lolo at lola nya and she needs to spend as much time with them as possible. We planned for one last get away, it was easy for us as we were both single then. 2 Days one night, phones off, resort sa batanggas, just the two of us. We tried to make the most of it, kwentuhan about the past, hanging out, cuddling as friends and fucking as lovers. We had one last risque adventure back then. One of our bests? Yeah probably because of the sentimental value. The next day on the way home may one last hirit pa, one last indecent check-in sa cheap motel - just like we used to when we were both studying. 3 hot hours acting like teenagers. She did promise to come back to at least fuck every now and then. I promised to visit her in 2 years to fuck... But life and career got in the way so we never did.
The last time I had a conversation with Bianx was last year. Short hi hello kamusta. We lost touch na siguro talaga. No regrets. Thats life. At the time, it didn't hit me and I wasn't sad and all. I remember being busy, not having enough time to ask how she really is. Ganun talaga siguro ang buhay. But every now and then, I still check out her IG and madalas kong masabi sa sarili ko, malamig nga siguro talaga sa New York.... She's always covered up. Then I can still hear her snap at me with "Manyak!" or "You weirdo!."
I might take a break writing about her. Or I'm not even sure if I'll write about her pa. Una need ko ng recovery period- days akong hindi makatulog while writing about her. Parang nag overflow ang libido ko and even if do something about it, hindi bumababa and it kept me up all day and all night. Need a break or I might die because of libog. Haha.
Second is I need to pick-out the next few stories about Bianx, still need to consider our anonymity with every word I type. Lalo na it would involve other people and places that would definitely give clues about who we are. I've gotten a few pm's asking for pictures or asking for more details or asking if they could meet Bianx. Sorry, I really can't break rule number 1. If the miracle chance that one of the readers here was involved in our lives and recognizes me or her through these stories, I appeal to your humanity, please keep it to yourself.
And last, Bianx is not my TOTGA (someone commented about this on Part 1), The One That Got Away. I never did think of her like that. She's the one that I let go though. We both did. Pero if you look back and reminisce about something as real as what we've had, even worse, write about it, it gets to you. I don't have any what-ifs with her and I don't want to start now. So quit while I'm still a little bit ahead.
Thank you to everyone who read, commented, related, appreciated and enjoyed these stories of mine. I hope in some way, it helped you go through what you're going through. They say honesty is the best policy, yeah true but people should be telling themselves that more. Be honest to yourself and liberate yourself from the unfair expectations of this world. You'll be happier, I promise you. Just like we were.
So for now, this is the end. Thanks again.
Ito ang mga napagkasunduan naming rules ni Bianx sa aming hindi normal na sex life:
1. Safety nya ang number one priority. Kapag alanganin kahit konti ang kanyang safety ay hindi nya itutuloy ang kahit anong naughty stuff na binabalak namin.
2. Manlilibog lang sya ng iba o magpapakantot sa iba kapag parehas kaming payag. Kapag nag aalinlangan kahit isa samin ay hindi itutuloy ang plano.
2.a. Ang exception lang dito ay kung hindi nya ako ma contact at gustong gusto nya na magpabastos sa iba -> Naidagdag tong rule na to ng halos isang taon na kami.
3. Hiling nya na wag naman sobrang random ng kakantutin nya. May konting research din para sa kanyang safety and health.
3.a Ito ang rule na madalas hindi masunod. Kapag inatake ng libog, ito ang unang nakakalimutan.
4. Condom is a must. Lagi itong nasusunod kaya lagi kaming may baon na condom. Ako lang ang pwedeng mag cum sa loob ng puke nya and later on sa pwet nya.
5. Di ako pwedeng kumantot ng ibang babae kapag hindi sya kasama. Selosa pa din sya kahit papaano at hindi daw nya kayang hindi sya kasama.
6. Bawal ang senior na. Nadala siguro sya sa mga napapanood na movies or shows na namamatay yung senior habang nagse-sex.
7. No photos, no videos. Period. Siguraduhin ito ng mabuti. See Rule number 1.
8. Bawal sa kakilala, kaibigan, kaklase, etc hanggat maari para maka-iwas sa mga complications na pwedeng maidulot nito.
9. Bawal sa negro. Ayaw daw nyang mapunit ng husto ang puke nya.
10. Libog lang talaga ang pwede. Walang emotional attraction o attachment. Pwede i-share sa iba ang katawan nya, pero ako lang ang mahal nya.
Lahat ng rules na ito pati ang mga addendum nila ay nasunod habang magkasintahan pa kami ni Bianx maliban na lang sa number 3 na maraming beses hindi nasunod.
Madali namin napag agree-han ni Bianx ang rules 1 to 4. Ang rule 5 to 10 naman ay nadagdag na lang ng nadagdag sa sumunod na linggo at buwan.
Noong unang beses pa lang akong pumunta sa bahay ni Bianx ay na pagkasunduan na namin ang rules 1 to 4 kasabay ng mga una naming binalak na pwede naming gawin. Buong maghapon at magdamag talaga kami libog na libog sa isa't isa nun. Hindi nawawala kahit ilang beses kaming mag sex, kahit ba mag shower na kami o manood mang ng dvd, mag lambingan o kahit ano pang gawin namin. Laging nauuwi sa kantutan. Doon na din ako natulog nung gabi na yun at umuwi lamang early afternoon kinabukasan. I-share ko na lang ang mga interesting parts at mga kinalibugan ko pati na din kung anong nangyari nung huli. Nakakatuwa na mas maraming pm's asking questions about our relationship vs questions about our sex life.
Ang unang unang gustong gawin ni Bianx talaga nung mga oras na yun ay magpakantot ulit kay 3 and 4. Matagal namin pinag isipan, parehas naming gusto pero parehas kaming nag-aalangan. Dito na buo ang rule number 1 kasi pwedeng may gawin si 3 and 4 na hindi namin ma-anticipate at mapag handaan. Pwedeng malagay sa alanganin si Bianx kaya hindi na lang namin ito tinuloy. We both think na people can do something totally unpredictable when under the influence.
Si 2 ang nakipag hiwalay kay Bianx. Nagka siryosong girlfriend daw pero sinabi kay Bianx na pwede naman daw silang mag sex ng patago, wag nga lang daw si Bianx ang magtetext. Galit na galit daw si Bianx nun at nag walkout nung nag-uusap sila. Pero bumalik din daw sya saka nagpakantot. Twice pa sila nag kita after nun para lang magpakantot sya. Both times si 2 ang nag aya. Di na daw na-ulit kasi nawalan na sya ng interest at naawa sa girlfriend ni 2.
Tinanong nya ako kung gusto ko makipag threesome kasama si Yang. Nung pinag isipan ko ito ng mabuti. Parang hindi ko naman talaga type si Yang so parang alangan ako. Tinanong ko si Bianx kung papayag ba yun, sabi nya sure sya na ma-convince nya yun ng one time threesome. Yang owe's her one daw. Pero di din namin tinuloy. Hanap na lang kami ng iba sabi ko. Hanapan daw nya ako, parang bugaw lang. Haha.
Everyday mag masturbate si Bianx. Sa mga red days nya ay puro nipples lang ang nilalaro nya. Dun daw siguro naging super sensitive ng nipples nya at kaya nyang mag cum na nipples lang ang nilalaro. Naging weakness din daw nya ang nipples nya. Parang on switch daw na walang off feature. Kaya madalas kaming mag SOP lalo na pag di kami nagkita nung araw na yun. Natuto daw syang mag self play nung nasa US pa lang daw sya, won't mention the age na lang.
Most girls daw, clit talaga ang preference. Most din daw talaga sa clit lang nag cucum. Pero sya daw parang mas nag cucum sya sa penetration. And size matters daw talaga para sa kanya. Sa kanilang apat na magkaka-close na barkada, never pa daw naka experience ng orgasm si Diane saka Apple. Di daw nag sosolo play yung dalawa. Si Apple zero experience at walang boyfriend since birth, si Diane naman daw puro dada lang at complete noob daw in terms of experience in bed. All bark and no bite daw.
Nung unang tinanong nya ako, whats the first thing that comes to mind na nagpapalibog sakin na pwede nyang gawin nung time na yun, ang sagot ko sa kanya is her in a public place with no bra at bakat na bakat ang nipples. Ito ang una naming pinag planuhan. Una, tinanong ko ba kung pwede bang wag na sya mag bra forever, hindi kasi for health reasons, para di daw lumawlaw agad mga dede nya, and may mga circumstances din na hindi pwede. Example nya nun, is pano kung may family dinner kami, hindi naman daw sya pwedeng magpaka slut at baka paghiwalayin kami ng magulang ko. Pero sobrang nagustuhan nya ang idea at willing syang gawin soon. Pano nga lang daw kung ayain sya makipag sex ng total random. Humaba yung usapan namin nun at nabuo at rules 2, 3 and 4. Kikilalanin muna daw nya kung may lalapit bago sya magpaalam magpakantot. Right after pag usapan ito, nag sex kami ng matindi nun sa living room area.
Last nyang naka sex before ako, was si 5. Mga 2 or 3 weeks before bday ni Liam. So matagal daw syang tigang. If I took advantage of her daw nung bday ni Liam, papayag sya no questions asked kasi sobrang horny daw sya na pasimple akong manyak. Pero buti na lang daw hindi, kasi ang sakit daw isipin kung naging fuck buddies lang kami. Ang lungkot at bigat daw sa dibdib.
First meeting pa lang daw namin crush nya na ako. Inamin naman nya madaming gwapo sa barkada namin, pero ako lang daw yung parang walang interest sa kanya. Yung chill lang, hindi papansin, may pagka suplado. Una daw kala nya challenging lang kaya sya naging interested sakin, pero ang gentleman ko daw at maalaga sa mga friends kong girls. Kaya daw pala ako ang kuya. Crush daw ako dati ni Samantha and Anne, mga kabarkada ko. Pero di na daw ngayon, kasi daw na misunderstood lang daw nung dalawa yung pagiging maalaga ko sa kanila. Si Anne nga daw nagfafall na daw dati kasi pag tatawid daw ng kalsada tinatawid ko pa sya lagi. Tinawanan daw nya and sabi nya ang babaw ah, pero gets nya daw. Girls notice the headlines daw, pero fall in love with the details.
Game sya sa sex in public. Game na game. Nahuli kami twice dahil madalas talaga namin itong gawin. Both times guards - guards ng isang executive village at guards ng isang business establishment, hindi sa isa sa mga commercial properties nila ha. Magandang idea ito para sa isa sa mga kwento tungkol sa kanya. Pag-iisipan ko itong mabuti.
That night might be the best night of our relationship. We both felt na that was it. I was the one for her and she was the one for me. Compatibility wise, without a doubt. Intelectual, physical, emotional, sexual check boxes - checked! Funny how the human heart works. We broke up just two years after that night, di naman eksakto but close enough. No big fight, no third party-ish, at least not emotionally and definitely no hate. Just lots of tears, promises and more plans on what comes next - we became bestfriends afterwards. Did we still fuck as friends? Oh hell yes we did! Kahit both in a relationship kami, we still had sex, patakas madalas lalo na sa side ko. One of our promises was to have sex at least once a month . Nasunod naman to for the most part, until we got older and got busier with life, di na naging madalas but everytime we did, it was hot as hell.
We rarely fought nung kami pa. Even if we did, it rarely lasted more than a few hours. We were happy and content and did a lot of new things together. Obviously the sex was great. It just got to the point na we fell out of love. We both did, we both lost it. We can't explain it but we just did. I think it was lingering for a at least 2 months before we actually broke up. She had bigger balls than I did so she started the conversation. Like we always do, we tried to make sense of things. Talk about it the whole night. We concluded na, while we still love each other terribly, care about each other the most in the world, it wasn't the same. It doesn't feel like the unexplainable force that makes you burn with passion and throw all reason out the window. Pero our feelings and care for each other were so strong na we can't live without the other. We always had answers for our how's and why's, its just that we can't answer the question who? with of our names anymore.
We decided to be bestfriends. To still have sex as much as we want to. Our partners had to deal with us being bestfriends. It was a buy one take one deal. When we were getting to know someone we were really interested in, we would always ask that person if they can deal with us having a bestfriend of opposite sex, someone who has been there way before, who would always be around, and who would remain long after any relationship fizzles out. It kinda was the first test if someone was worth our time. Our biggest fight ever was when I had a serious girlfriend after her. She lost it completely for the first time, since it was Diane, one of her closest friends. We patched it up about two weeks after, and I re-assured her that our secret is ours alone. And I never had anything going on with Diane before Diane and I started dating. It just happened. She was pissed kasi even when we were still together, Diane always had a thing for me. While I only ever noticed Diane a few years after I broke up with Bianx. Diane and I didn't even last a year. Sex was like manual labor for me and she was boring. Whenever would I complain to Bianx about Diane, Bianx would always tell me, 'TOLD YOU SO!'
There were many boyfriends and girlfriends in between and nothing seem to change between us. Oh boy there were handful of difficult times that we both contemplated getting back together, it was just so logical and seemed like the smart thing to do, but never did we dare try to go back to who we were, when we were an us. Probably we value each other and what we had after we broke up even more so than gambling on creating what ifs and chasing after the past. We never had that cliche usapan tho, you know, the one that boy-girl bestfriends always have, na sila na magpapakasal after x number of years pag single pa din sila. We both find it... Cringy.. She did promise to bear my child if no one else would. The logistics of it all would be a pieace of cake for the both of us. But time went on and no one really ever stands still. The drift always happens, gradual for most, unbearably miniscule for the both of us. Again, we didn't notice it happen, we drifted apart.
The last time I saw Bianx in person was about 10 years ago. She went back to the states. Tumatanda na daw ang lolo at lola nya and she needs to spend as much time with them as possible. We planned for one last get away, it was easy for us as we were both single then. 2 Days one night, phones off, resort sa batanggas, just the two of us. We tried to make the most of it, kwentuhan about the past, hanging out, cuddling as friends and fucking as lovers. We had one last risque adventure back then. One of our bests? Yeah probably because of the sentimental value. The next day on the way home may one last hirit pa, one last indecent check-in sa cheap motel - just like we used to when we were both studying. 3 hot hours acting like teenagers. She did promise to come back to at least fuck every now and then. I promised to visit her in 2 years to fuck... But life and career got in the way so we never did.
The last time I had a conversation with Bianx was last year. Short hi hello kamusta. We lost touch na siguro talaga. No regrets. Thats life. At the time, it didn't hit me and I wasn't sad and all. I remember being busy, not having enough time to ask how she really is. Ganun talaga siguro ang buhay. But every now and then, I still check out her IG and madalas kong masabi sa sarili ko, malamig nga siguro talaga sa New York.... She's always covered up. Then I can still hear her snap at me with "Manyak!" or "You weirdo!."
I might take a break writing about her. Or I'm not even sure if I'll write about her pa. Una need ko ng recovery period- days akong hindi makatulog while writing about her. Parang nag overflow ang libido ko and even if do something about it, hindi bumababa and it kept me up all day and all night. Need a break or I might die because of libog. Haha.
Second is I need to pick-out the next few stories about Bianx, still need to consider our anonymity with every word I type. Lalo na it would involve other people and places that would definitely give clues about who we are. I've gotten a few pm's asking for pictures or asking for more details or asking if they could meet Bianx. Sorry, I really can't break rule number 1. If the miracle chance that one of the readers here was involved in our lives and recognizes me or her through these stories, I appeal to your humanity, please keep it to yourself.
And last, Bianx is not my TOTGA (someone commented about this on Part 1), The One That Got Away. I never did think of her like that. She's the one that I let go though. We both did. Pero if you look back and reminisce about something as real as what we've had, even worse, write about it, it gets to you. I don't have any what-ifs with her and I don't want to start now. So quit while I'm still a little bit ahead.
Thank you to everyone who read, commented, related, appreciated and enjoyed these stories of mine. I hope in some way, it helped you go through what you're going through. They say honesty is the best policy, yeah true but people should be telling themselves that more. Be honest to yourself and liberate yourself from the unfair expectations of this world. You'll be happier, I promise you. Just like we were.
So for now, this is the end. Thanks again.