Dear Mark 05182017
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Dear Mark,
Sensya na if you think makulit ako. Pero ever since I wrote that letter to you yesterday, I felt light inside. Somehow it serves as a therapy for me, I guess. So you'll hear from me more often.
Today was the first day that I spent the whole day at my Tita's house. And surprisingly it was not that bad. They really took the effort to make a good impression. I woke up with breakfast already served. Pero hinintay pa rin nila ako. Nahiya tuloy ako kasi late na ako nagising. Habang kumakain they made small talk which is a little awkward but Tito Kanor knew how to break the ice. He was funny as hell. Especially when he tries to talk like me sarcastically. I'm weak for funny guys so it was not difficult to open up to them after that. The sinangag was awesome. And its been awhile since I last ate a lot.
Speaking of open, I noticed that Tito who is seated in front of me keeps dropping his utensils kaya naalala ko what happened the night before. And even though I'm wearing the same pajama, my knees are together so I doubt may makikita siya kahit bakat ng panty ko. So its weird. Eh ang katabi ko sa mesa is yung anak niya, si Ate Sam. Napansin ko na naka bestida lang si Ate Sam at nakataas ang paa habang kumakain. Hindi kaya anak niya binobosohan niya?
Naaah... Madumi lang siguro ang isip ko.
After breakfast, tumulong ako kay Ate Sam sa paghugas ng pinggan para hindi naman nila isipin na pabigat ako.
Nagpaalam na sa Tita para buksan and tindahan nila sa market. Tito naman is pumunta sa sala para manood ng tv. As far as I know, Tito doesn't work. Tumutulong lang siya sa tindahan ni Tita.
Afterwards, I made my way upstairs to take a bath whem I noticed that tito is watching NBA. It's the Golden State Vs San Antonio and you know naman I so loooooove Stephen Curry. So I stood still to watch the game. Ang guwapo talaga ni Steph, makalaglag panty hihihi I swear sabihin lang ni Steoh at ibibigay ko ang virginity ko sa kanya!
And then napansin yata ni Tito na nanonood ako so niyaya niya ako umupo sa tabi niya sa sofa. Naghesitate ako nung una kasi nga creepy ang dating. Lalo na ngayon. Nakasuot ba naman ng sando pero lumalabas pa rin ang pusod niya dahil sa laki ng tiyan. Eh hindi rin naman siya ganun kataba. Combine that with his maitim na complexion and napapanot na ulk. Oh di ba? Creepy nga.
Kaso nga lang... I don't want to give him the impression na manyakol ang tingin ko sa kanya. I want to have a good relationship with my guardians. They are the only family I have. So.. I comply. I sit beside him pero as far as possible. Tapos I had my arms crossed on top of my breast. Naka sleeveless shirt lang kasi ang pang itaas ko at wala akong bra. Pero I never had a used for a bra anyway dahil maliit lang ang breast ko. Pero this time talagang na conscious ako.
Madaldal pa rin si Tito and he keeps talking about basketball. Eh wala naman akong interes dun. I don't even know how the game works. Basta alam ko lang everytime na nakikita ko si Steph eh bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
Natapos ang game at tinambakan ng Golden State ang San Antonio. Aakyat na sana ako whrn he suddenly ask kung gusti ko mag aral ng basketball. Eh medyo excited pa rin ako dahil sa pagkapanalo ni Steph so I said to myself, maybe it's time for me to learn the game. Para makarelate naman ako. So sinunda ko siya sa likod ng bahay and meron nga sabg makeshift na basketball court. And then he picked up this orange ball at pinasa sa akin. It almost hit me puti na lang nasagi ko nv kamay ko.
So he picked it up and taught me how to catch, pass, shoot and dribble. All those times nasa likod ko siya guiding my hands on how to do them. It was uncomfortable but I was having fun. Especially when I made my first shot. I was so fucking elated that I didn't realized he hugged me from behind to celebrate the shot with me. And out of nowhere I felt this hard thing on my ass! I immediately let go and walked out on him. I am not stupid I know that its his dick! It's bad enough that he had a hard on his niece. He even have the fucking courage to rub it!
I immediately took a bath. I feel so violated. I'm so disgusted... After I took a shower, I looked at myself in the mirror. Thoughts of what transpired running through my mind. When I calmed down, somehow I don't feel that angry with him anymore. And honestly somehow I am more concerned if he liked what he felt. So I removed the towel that is wrapped around my body and turned around. Using my two hands, I lifted my now bare ass cheeks.
And I'm confident that he did because I have a great ass. Matambok at maputi kaya ang ass ko :P Oooy wag kang kokontra. Wala man ako boobs, bootylicious naman.
Going back to Tito, do I like him? Because I can easily avoid the situation but I did not. Or I just like being...liked?
I guess, it's the latter. Im in a vulnerable state with my loss and all. So that must be it.
Hmmm... Ano pa ba makukuwento ko sayo?
Oh yeah after lunch sinamahan ni Ate Sam para maggala sa labas. Medyo magulo nga yung compound. Maraming loko loko at maraming nakaputi. Siguro malapit kami sa ospital.
Oist sige na. Meron akong naririnig na paakyat. Kelangan kong magtulog tulugan ulit.
Magreply ka naman!
Luvs,
Amber